stephen goswami
June 15th 2008, 06:49 AM
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It is said that devil is the accuser. It is a most futile action. You can never correct one. Only he can
correct self. You can only teach with sympathy. When character is concerned, without God’s help correction is impossible. Then accusation disrupts relation.
Before I came to Christ, I always accused others for my pains, never on my shortcomings, as I knew I can never change myself. These futile accusations degraded me further. Due to bitterness thoughts of suicide haunted me. To save myself I sought God. But in my atheist family God was never discussed. So I fled home and entered a Hindu monastery. Here too I found gods are accusers and commit suicide in the end. Frustrated I left the monastery to return home. But the atheism and turmoil at home drove me out again. I would have died as a vagrant had not Christ saved me.
Christ drew me out of accusing mood to repentance mood. I knew that I am solely responsible for my misery. If I suffer from outside agents, that is also due to my weakness. That has made me vulnerable to them. Rejecting love-God I have fallen from the higher love association of souls, called heaven, to this hostile place. Christ told that in prodigal son. Also Indian scriptures tell it. My weakness is caused by disintegrity within my soul, mind and body parts. When we reject love, it diminishes gradually and the internal bond become loose, as love is the abiding bonding agent of everything, soul, body, mind, family, society, nation etc. Cooperation within parts diminish and infighting increases making life hell and failure. So I was tempted to suicide. But when living Christ came, he turned me to love and I was reintegrated within and with others, seeking his love and getting it. Life-wish became stronger as internal peace came. But proud people don’t seek love but heady praise and power. They remain accuser and loose hope in life. It is the experience of me preaching Christ mainly among Muslims for 40 years.
It is said that devil is the accuser. It is a most futile action. You can never correct one. Only he can
correct self. You can only teach with sympathy. When character is concerned, without God’s help correction is impossible. Then accusation disrupts relation.
Before I came to Christ, I always accused others for my pains, never on my shortcomings, as I knew I can never change myself. These futile accusations degraded me further. Due to bitterness thoughts of suicide haunted me. To save myself I sought God. But in my atheist family God was never discussed. So I fled home and entered a Hindu monastery. Here too I found gods are accusers and commit suicide in the end. Frustrated I left the monastery to return home. But the atheism and turmoil at home drove me out again. I would have died as a vagrant had not Christ saved me.
Christ drew me out of accusing mood to repentance mood. I knew that I am solely responsible for my misery. If I suffer from outside agents, that is also due to my weakness. That has made me vulnerable to them. Rejecting love-God I have fallen from the higher love association of souls, called heaven, to this hostile place. Christ told that in prodigal son. Also Indian scriptures tell it. My weakness is caused by disintegrity within my soul, mind and body parts. When we reject love, it diminishes gradually and the internal bond become loose, as love is the abiding bonding agent of everything, soul, body, mind, family, society, nation etc. Cooperation within parts diminish and infighting increases making life hell and failure. So I was tempted to suicide. But when living Christ came, he turned me to love and I was reintegrated within and with others, seeking his love and getting it. Life-wish became stronger as internal peace came. But proud people don’t seek love but heady praise and power. They remain accuser and loose hope in life. It is the experience of me preaching Christ mainly among Muslims for 40 years.