To begin with, I have to apologise. After having an online scizophrenic episode I was called a false prophet by Twebbers and I left in my signature box that "there was no fear of god on tweb" and that I would leave the website forever. I am now willingly taking medication for Schizophrenia and have been for almost 10 months now, I realize that creating the blog that I did was probably one of the worst mistakes I've ever made and I'm sorry for it. Not that anybody else has to live with the embarrassment but I'm also sorry that I took a 'holier than thou' attitude, I'm sure there are people on Tweb who fear God. I pray to God that I'm not a false prophet and that it was a mistake that could be explained on psychiatric terms. I also want to apologise for becoming such a troll, my last 2 posts were terrible.
Now that that's out of the way, about 8 years ago I went to an eye doctor and with a little strip that he put in my eye he told me that I have dry eyes, at the time I couldn't feel it and wouldn't have known. But, he said my eyes weren't producing as much tears as they should. I went around just fine until about 5 years ago, I got placed on a certification and put on risperdal. The first thing that happened to me was that my eyes dried up and I was certain the medication would make me go blind. Back then I used to hold my eye lids open until my eyes got so dry that a gush of tears would pour out and I used to find relief that way. Nowadays I can't even do that my eyes won't produce tears for nothing. I'm on restasis now and it does it's job but it's still not the cure for dry eyes. I was told by a nurse that I can't go blind from dry eye but on the internet it says it's rare but does happen.
My biggest problem is that for the last few years I've become depressed from having dry eyes, I think I'm going to go blind from it. My medication makes the dry eye worse but because it does it's job the doctor says it's better to treat the dry eye so I'm drops on top of restasis. The dry eyes seem to get drier as time goes by and I've adopted a "what's the point if I'm going to go blind" mentality. I won't even get a job it makes me want to do nothing. My question is does anybody else suffer from dry eyes and run into similar problems? and how long have you had it? If I heard some people say that they've been living with dry eye for 10 to 20 years and haven't lost their eyesight I might find some hope
Christian Nihilism: I celebrate the fall of Babylon, plus the destruction of sodom and gomorrah. In the mean time I wait for The Day of The Lord
and the establishment of an aristocratic government consisting of 1 king and 144,000 co-rulers.
I also support the presence of holy warriors like back in the day in the book of judges.