A lot of good things have happened: I got my disability, a new computer as a gift, and will be getting internet. I have a plan in action to get back on my feet.
But I get easily upset still - and I'm not feeling well a lot of the time. I so want to do better - be better. Get things done, write, make things, be useful - be a productive member of the kingdom - but I still get irrationally scared. God got me through so much - I DO trust Him - and yet I get spooked easily.
Why is it with plenty of time now, I get so little done?
Anyway, I figured out one part - the bed's too soft. Changing sides helped - shifting board will help more. Need to keep up with my supplements better - that would help not feeling so bad, I think.
Argh, the problem is that I'm my own biggest problem, even when things are going so much better.
But I get easily upset still - and I'm not feeling well a lot of the time. I so want to do better - be better. Get things done, write, make things, be useful - be a productive member of the kingdom - but I still get irrationally scared. God got me through so much - I DO trust Him - and yet I get spooked easily.
Why is it with plenty of time now, I get so little done?
Anyway, I figured out one part - the bed's too soft. Changing sides helped - shifting board will help more. Need to keep up with my supplements better - that would help not feeling so bad, I think.
Argh, the problem is that I'm my own biggest problem, even when things are going so much better.
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