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My Wife And Emotional Commitment

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  • My Wife And Emotional Commitment

    What does it mean to be committed to someone?

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    What does it mean to connect? Let's plunge into the Deeper Waters and find out.

    I hate to tell you all this, but I am not the husband I should be being. If you watched on Facebook and wondered why I stopped posting to my wife, it's not because my love died for her one bit, but it's because it seemed to be more of a show to her and the substance behind the scenes wasn't all I thought it should be. As it turns out, she hasn't felt emotionally connected for years and it has been heartbreaking to realize this.

    Allie had a hard day yesterday and when we went to bed, we prayed and then we just started talking. Allie takes medications at night and one purpose of one medication is to help her sleep. Because of that, we don't do anything that will go against that, so that means that once she takes her medicine, nothing sexual will happen. That is then off the table.

    So what did we do? We found ourselves just talking. Allie goes to bed early and we went to bed at 8:30. I normally stay up and do some work after that. While I do value that time, tonight, I got a lot more.

    As a man, I can too often be pushing for sexual fulfillment way too much. Allie insists I need to wait and let her come to me, but I sadly have a tendency to be boneheaded and not listen. When it was off the table, I found I got something incredibly fulfilling in just talking together. That doesn't mean I didn't from time to time give a hug or a kiss, but it was something simple, something that could have been done while we were just dating.

    I found my wife amazing in so many ways. She is really one of the strongest women I know if not the strongest. She recently shared on her Instagram a picture called Healer's Journey. Take a look for yourself.

    Healer's Journey.jpg

    This is my wife. No matter what pain she is going through, she has care for so many people who come to her, much more than I do. The reality is many of you don't know what goes on with her. Inside her head every day it is a battle. Every day she has the hardest voices tearing her apart. She resists temptations so much that you and I never really can think about.

    Sadly, she takes upon herself the weight of the world often and when she sees people around her in pain, she feels personally responsible. She feels used to being neglected and abandoned and alone and sadly, I fear I have treated her the same way at times unintentionally. Many of you don't really know what is going on inside of her, but rest assured when she is giving to you, she is often in a place of pain herself.

    She lives with a constant perfectionism for instance inside of her and never thinks she's good enough. This can affect her Christian walk as every sin seems to be unacceptable. In a sense it is, but she does have a struggle with grace. Still, when I see her hungering for God so much and praying for more of Him, I can often think there is something missing in me. It's easy for me to just come to God with my list of the things I want. Allie is different. She truly wants to come to the table just for the one seated at the table.

    This is causing me to look at my own prayer life differently and my own Christian walk. Seeing the way I have unintentionally mistreated her over the years is causing me to look at how others are and have more grace and mercy. Some things Allie has said to me lately would normally get me in anger immediately, but they haven't been. I've had to look at myself a lot more.

    I've told her that lately, she has given me a great gift. She has given me the opportunity to humble myself. I stress the opportunity aspect because she can't humble me like that. Humility has to be an act on my own part. I can assure any reader that I take no delight in any sort of self-humiliation on my part here, but I do take delight in getting to tell you more about her.

    The thing about her is she really cares. I am convinced that one day she will be a beacon of hope to so many people. I have apologetics and it's good to answer questions and they need to be answered, but she has a story and I think a story will connect a whole lot more for many other people. She has a story that it will be very hard to argue against.

    So today, I want to give this as a tribute to the woman I love so much, my Princess Allie Peters. This is a woman who is giving me an opportunity to have a deeper walk with Christ and take a look at myself and sacrifice my own pride for a greater cause. This is a woman who makes me want to be a better Christian just by being herself. This is a woman who still loves me for some odd reason though I have done much to not deserve it. Her love is a gift that I could never earn, but like I plan to do with God's love, may I spend the rest of my life showing how much it means to me.

    Love you, Princess. Thank God for what you are being used to do in my life and thank you for your willingness to be used by God.

    In Christ,
    Nick Peters

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