Howdy Folks,
I could use your prayers. I haven't slept at all in the past 4 days. What's more, I have sleep apnea and RLS coupled with interstitial cystitis, so when I do "sleep", it's extremely broken and simply insufficient. This has forced me to live my life in isolation due to social settings being far too taxing. I willed myself with all my energy to get a job and move out of my dad's house-of-mold (clearly not helping) 1 year ago and it has been one hell of struggle to get where I am today, however, it seems like it's one battle after another. I moved 4 times in the past year and my roommates almost killed me due to conflicts with my schedule (I worked nights) and every time I drifted to sleep, it wasn't long before a roommate slammed a door or laughed out loud (literally..literally) and woke me up (I'm an EXTREMELY light "sleeper"). I've been sleeping on broken bed frames and being misunderstood by everyone cause' they can't relate to severe sleep deprivation. I remember sitting on the subway going to work and blacking out, slipping in and out of consciousness, thinking " hm, should I press the emergency lever now or wait a little longer?" I often muster all the focus I can to walk down stairs and take showers because I often feel like I'm on the verge of fainting.
Anyway, brighter days are ahead cause' I'm moving again - this time I'm able to afford my own apartment - so no more roommates from hell. Once in this situation I'm confident that I will be able to increasingly flourish and get things in order. I have a lot of healing to go through due to an UTTERLY dysfunctional upbringing and then my teenage years spent in a drugged out daze.
Thank-you.
I could use your prayers. I haven't slept at all in the past 4 days. What's more, I have sleep apnea and RLS coupled with interstitial cystitis, so when I do "sleep", it's extremely broken and simply insufficient. This has forced me to live my life in isolation due to social settings being far too taxing. I willed myself with all my energy to get a job and move out of my dad's house-of-mold (clearly not helping) 1 year ago and it has been one hell of struggle to get where I am today, however, it seems like it's one battle after another. I moved 4 times in the past year and my roommates almost killed me due to conflicts with my schedule (I worked nights) and every time I drifted to sleep, it wasn't long before a roommate slammed a door or laughed out loud (literally..literally) and woke me up (I'm an EXTREMELY light "sleeper"). I've been sleeping on broken bed frames and being misunderstood by everyone cause' they can't relate to severe sleep deprivation. I remember sitting on the subway going to work and blacking out, slipping in and out of consciousness, thinking " hm, should I press the emergency lever now or wait a little longer?" I often muster all the focus I can to walk down stairs and take showers because I often feel like I'm on the verge of fainting.
Anyway, brighter days are ahead cause' I'm moving again - this time I'm able to afford my own apartment - so no more roommates from hell. Once in this situation I'm confident that I will be able to increasingly flourish and get things in order. I have a lot of healing to go through due to an UTTERLY dysfunctional upbringing and then my teenage years spent in a drugged out daze.
Thank-you.
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