My resolve in 2006

[ApologiaPhoenix]

It was last Wednesday that I was at work thinking about that really cute female that kept going by that works in the cash office. At that point, it suddenly hit me. "How bad do you want this?" It's a valid question. I think about getting married and having a wife often, but I finally realized that's not going to happen sitting back and doing nothing. I will have to take action. The only thing holding myself back is myself.

Thus, I began resolve then. I was going to change my life and it was just around New Year's. I started getting a confidence then because I knew that if I worked for this enough, I could do it. Before too long, I was walking around in confidence and with a smile on my face and probably being even more flirty than usual.

I was even doing better the next day. A sniper bullet of doubt from a manager wasn't enough to bring me down. I came home and shared with some friends on my new resolve in life and the effect in my blog and maybe even in the PALtalk chats has been seen.

So, I would like to state my resolve for 2006.

I resolve to be educating myself on many more fields. I'm reading Summa Theologica now, a concise translation by Timothy McDermott. I have some other books in the waiting including Plutarch's Nine Lives and I plan to read more on Jewish history, Greek history, Roman history, English history, American history, ancient philosophy, and economics. There's a lot to learn out there and I want to be a part of it.

I resolve to not let myself be intimidated easily. It's time to get out of the shoes I've been seen in long enough of as a child. I don't have to please everyone. I don't have to justify myself to everyone. I don't have to ever apologize for being me. I need to learn to speak my mind and move on.

I resolve to get over many of my phobias. People who read my rec room thread of "Ask ApologiaNick" know that I did confess I am food-phobic in that thread and have a limited diet. I really want to work on that this year and move more towards normalcy.

That will also involve moving out. I want to get out from under the roof of my parents and be my own man. That means looking for a promotion at work or a new job altogether and hopefully getting jobs at various churches so I can speak on different topics in apologetics. Along those lines, I need to finish the two books I'm writing as well.

Of course, I plan to be more outgoing with the women. I don't want to have to base my life on them saying no to a request for a date. I plan to realize that I am really a good-looking and intelligent guy and that I do have a lot to offer a lady. If my goal is to get married and have kids someday, I can't sit around and wait for that to happen. I must act.

I also plan to improve myself more physically through exercise to the best of my ability. I've often been ashamed of my appearance physically, but I've decided recently I have nothing to be ashamed of really. I'm a handsome individual and if I criticize myself physically, it won't be long before I criticize myself in other areas.

Bottom line: I plan for confidence. I plan to clear my mind of can't. I plan to not let other people drag me down if I'm in a good mood. Why do I post all of this? Because it's easier to keep such goals if you have other people who know about them and will hold you to them. Also, maybe my resolve will encourage others as well.

I would like to thank some people on here.

First off. the TWeb staff. I think looking back what made me honored to be a mod was that for the first time, someone was saying I was capable and wasn't making any changes saying, "Well we know you have some disabilities and such." Nope. Just gave me a task and told me to do it. It's still an honor.

The TWeb PALtalk chat group. If anyone on here is not a part of that, it's your own fault. You're missing out on great fellowship. We have people of different beliefs there as well. The group provides fun fellowship as well as opportunity to annoy RumTum Potter.

I'd like to thank the gamers of the group also. I plan to spend less time in gaming some, but it's always been great to have some people I can relate to in that area. I'm thinking of people like Rayado and Little Shepherd who know the classic games and can speak about them well.

CoN. You rock dude really. I've always enjoyed talking to you and helping you through your life this year.

Jaltus. He's a great mentor type individual. I know that you think about me and the greatest gift you gave me was to call me friend. I appreciate it more than you know and your encouragement has been so worthwhile.

Apologia4JC18 and Stat23MJ. How long have I know you guys? We've grown closer than ever this year. Stat. Someday I will get to meet ya. Sorry it didn't work out twice this year. lol. Apologia. Be sure to take time to enjoy your life also. I've tried to give you some good advice in having you not make the same mistakes I made at your age. It's always good to learn from experience. Especially other people's.

DDW. You know what you did for me that I think really helped a lot. I choose to keep it secret specifically, but I had to give some thanks.

Ryokan. Thanks for a great discussion that we have. I'm really sorry I haven't been there more. I appreciated you reading my blogs and getting to know me and my world. Though we disagreed at first, I always valued your input and am the better for knowing you.

SpinyNorman. Thanks for listening to me as well and sending me those funny clips. I know you teach in the classroom, but I've seen you as a teacher of sorts to me as well.

Captain Ochre. Thanks for your encouragement this past year also. I haven't spoken to you in awhile, but I like to read your stuff.

Em7Add11. We had some really good discussions on comics and such. Thanks for helping me with my computer questions as well.

JesusMySaviour. (The screen name to clarify) thanks for all the times we talked on MSN. I wasn't always there, but I always appreciated your candor.

Teal and Kaz. A couple of great ladies on TWeb really. I know I sometimes can seem to annoy you two, but I enjoy your company as well. I hope to see you on my blog again soon also.

Punkish. I don't see ya often on here, but I've known you as long as I can remember being online. Thanks for the help on the Trinity and the Christ-myth throughout the years.

Along those lines, I would also have to thank JPHolding for always taking the time to read my emails on the most bizarre topics. Keep up the good work.

C4H. I miss chatting with you on PAL and I enjoyed our constant Smallville talks. Thanks for the MP3s. I'm really loving Ron Nash's stuff.

Sparko of course. You really helped me a lot when I was learning to be a mod. It's great working alongside you.

Trout. Thanks for the great compliment. I'm sure you know which one it is.

The young trinity of PALtalk of course. We've had some great fun together. Thanks for always making me laugh guys.

One name I've saved for last is RumTum Potter. You might think we can't stand each other when you see how much I annoy her on PAL, but she and I are closer than many other people on here I think. RTP has always been there for me and has been reading my blogs faithfully from the beginning. I've always appreciated her hugs and input and her support on my quest to find Ms. Right and move on in the world.

And to whoever Mrs. Right is, please wait. I'm on my way. I know Jaltus is right. The person you love is the most beautiful in the world, and you certainly will be and are the most beautiful to me.

And of course, thanks to my God. If it wasn't for Christ, I really wouldn't be here now. I try to remember still throughout all that goes on that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. That includes marrying, moving out, going to seminary, overcoming phobias, and teaching someday.

Thanks to everyone on TWeb. This is an awesome place. I just wanted to say some things publicly.

[SpinyNorman]

I got a little teary eyed their Nickmeister.

I'd like to thank YOU for the chance to get to know you. You are a funny guy and a class act.

I am sure I will keep the RTT barbs coming your way.

Stay gold pony boy.

Stay gold.

[Gideon Brown]

I got a little teary eyed their Nickmeister.

Yeah, me too, because while reading it I really hurt myself by hitting my foot on a table. That reminded me of the time my mother died in my arms, and then I sneezed. Also, I may be developing hay fever.

[SpinyNorman]

Yeah, me too, because while reading it I really hurt myself by hitting my foot on a table. That reminded me of the time my mother died in my arms, and then I sneezed. Also, I may be developing hay fever.

Take 30 advil and call in dead in the morning.

[Gideon Brown]

Take 30 advil and call in dead in the morning.

I'm already dead! :darklaugh:

:mummy:

[SpinyNorman]

I'm already dead!

:mummy:

I see dead posters.

[RumTumTugger]

Nick I don't know what to say except I'm glad that the little I could do helped.

And Nick thanks for all the laughter it did help me during the rough times I had this year. to one who is like a brother to me.

[SpinyNorman]

Aw man. Rtt comes in and ruins the fun mood we had going here Tuck by getting all serious.

Buzz kill.

Where is a good plumber when you need one?

[Gideon Brown]

Where is a good plumber when you need one?

Dunno, but I hope they come up with one real soon. REAL soon.

[SpinyNorman]

Dunno, but I hope they come up with one real soon. REAL soon.

See...it's not really a good thead until toilet humor is involved.

[Jaltus]

Spiny, whenever you post toilet humor is involved.

AN,

You know I love ya. Learn the languages, though! You cannot do fullblown academic apologetics until you know (or are familiar with) the languages. JPH has to be about the only apologist worth anything who does not know the languages (and I have great respect for JPH, but he is the exception rather than the rule).

Keep on keeping on, my friend. Remember that it is all about God's will and His timing. Ask me about that in about 5 months, and I will likely have a good story to tell you.

[ApologiaPhoenix]

Spiny, whenever you post toilet humor is involved.

AN,

You know I love ya. Learn the languages, though! You cannot do fullblown academic apologetics until you know (or are familiar with) the languages. JPH has to be about the only apologist worth anything who does not know the languages (and I have great respect for JPH, but he is the exception rather than the rule).

Keep on keeping on, my friend. Remember that it is all about God's will and His timing. Ask me about that in about 5 months, and I will likely have a good story to tell you.

Actually Jaltus, I am working on my Greek again. If it's possible, I'd even like some of your quizzes and such so I can test myself better as I go through the language once again.

Overall, just working on keeping my confidence up. It's quite an endeavor, but one I'm sure will be worthwhile. Yes. I do plan on learning Hebrew after Greek as well.

[Ryokan]

It was last Wednesday that I was at work thinking about that really cute female that kept going by that works in the cash office. At that point, it suddenly hit me. "How bad do you want this?" It's a valid question. I think about getting married and having a wife often, but I finally realized that's not going to happen sitting back and doing nothing. I will have to take action. The only thing holding myself back is myself.

Thus, I began resolve then. I was going to change my life and it was just around New Year's. I started getting a confidence then because I knew that if I worked for this enough, I could do it. Before too long, I was walking around in confidence and with a smile on my face and probably being even more flirty than usual.

I was even doing better the next day. A sniper bullet of doubt from a manager wasn't enough to bring me down. I came home and shared with some friends on my new resolve in life and the effect in my blog and maybe even in the PALtalk chats has been seen.

So, I would like to state my resolve for 2006.

I resolve to be educating myself on many more fields. I'm reading Summa Theologica now, a concise translation by Timothy McDermott. I have some other books in the waiting including Plutarch's Nine Lives and I plan to read more on Jewish history, Greek history, Roman history, English history, American history, ancient philosophy, and economics. There's a lot to learn out there and I want to be a part of it.

I resolve to not let myself be intimidated easily. It's time to get out of the shoes I've been seen in long enough of as a child. I don't have to please everyone. I don't have to justify myself to everyone. I don't have to ever apologize for being me. I need to learn to speak my mind and move on.

I resolve to get over many of my phobias. People who read my rec room thread of "Ask ApologiaNick" know that I did confess I am food-phobic in that thread and have a limited diet. I really want to work on that this year and move more towards normalcy.

That will also involve moving out. I want to get out from under the roof of my parents and be my own man. That means looking for a promotion at work or a new job altogether and hopefully getting jobs at various churches so I can speak on different topics in apologetics. Along those lines, I need to finish the two books I'm writing as well.

Of course, I plan to be more outgoing with the women. I don't want to have to base my life on them saying no to a request for a date. I plan to realize that I am really a good-looking and intelligent guy and that I do have a lot to offer a lady. If my goal is to get married and have kids someday, I can't sit around and wait for that to happen. I must act.

I also plan to improve myself more physically through exercise to the best of my ability. I've often been ashamed of my appearance physically, but I've decided recently I have nothing to be ashamed of really. I'm a handsome individual and if I criticize myself physically, it won't be long before I criticize myself in other areas.

Bottom line: I plan for confidence. I plan to clear my mind of can't. I plan to not let other people drag me down if I'm in a good mood. Why do I post all of this? Because it's easier to keep such goals if you have other people who know about them and will hold you to them. Also, maybe my resolve will encourage others as well.

I would like to thank some people on here.

First off. the TWeb staff. I think looking back what made me honored to be a mod was that for the first time, someone was saying I was capable and wasn't making any changes saying, "Well we know you have some disabilities and such." Nope. Just gave me a task and told me to do it. It's still an honor.

The TWeb PALtalk chat group. If anyone on here is not a part of that, it's your own fault. You're missing out on great fellowship. We have people of different beliefs there as well. The group provides fun fellowship as well as opportunity to annoy RumTum Potter.

I'd like to thank the gamers of the group also. I plan to spend less time in gaming some, but it's always been great to have some people I can relate to in that area. I'm thinking of people like Rayado and Little Shepherd who know the classic games and can speak about them well.

CoN. You rock dude really. I've always enjoyed talking to you and helping you through your life this year.

Jaltus. He's a great mentor type individual. I know that you think about me and the greatest gift you gave me was to call me friend. I appreciate it more than you know and your encouragement has been so worthwhile.

Apologia4JC18 and Stat23MJ. How long have I know you guys? We've grown closer than ever this year. Stat. Someday I will get to meet ya. Sorry it didn't work out twice this year. lol. Apologia. Be sure to take time to enjoy your life also. I've tried to give you some good advice in having you not make the same mistakes I made at your age. It's always good to learn from experience. Especially other people's.

DDW. You know what you did for me that I think really helped a lot. I choose to keep it secret specifically, but I had to give some thanks.

Ryokan. Thanks for a great discussion that we have. I'm really sorry I haven't been there more. I appreciated you reading my blogs and getting to know me and my world. Though we disagreed at first, I always valued your input and am the better for knowing you.

SpinyNorman. Thanks for listening to me as well and sending me those funny clips. I know you teach in the classroom, but I've seen you as a teacher of sorts to me as well.

Captain Ochre. Thanks for your encouragement this past year also. I haven't spoken to you in awhile, but I like to read your stuff.

Em7Add11. We had some really good discussions on comics and such. Thanks for helping me with my computer questions as well.

JesusMySaviour. (The screen name to clarify) thanks for all the times we talked on MSN. I wasn't always there, but I always appreciated your candor.

Teal and Kaz. A couple of great ladies on TWeb really. I know I sometimes can seem to annoy you two, but I enjoy your company as well. I hope to see you on my blog again soon also.

Punkish. I don't see ya often on here, but I've known you as long as I can remember being online. Thanks for the help on the Trinity and the Christ-myth throughout the years.

Along those lines, I would also have to thank JPHolding for always taking the time to read my emails on the most bizarre topics. Keep up the good work.

C4H. I miss chatting with you on PAL and I enjoyed our constant Smallville talks. Thanks for the MP3s. I'm really loving Ron Nash's stuff.

Sparko of course. You really helped me a lot when I was learning to be a mod. It's great working alongside you.

Trout. Thanks for the great compliment. I'm sure you know which one it is.

The young trinity of PALtalk of course. We've had some great fun together. Thanks for always making me laugh guys.

One name I've saved for last is RumTum Potter. You might think we can't stand each other when you see how much I annoy her on PAL, but she and I are closer than many other people on here I think. RTP has always been there for me and has been reading my blogs faithfully from the beginning. I've always appreciated her hugs and input and her support on my quest to find Ms. Right and move on in the world.

And to whoever Mrs. Right is, please wait. I'm on my way. I know Jaltus is right. The person you love is the most beautiful in the world, and you certainly will be and are the most beautiful to me.

And of course, thanks to my God. If it wasn't for Christ, I really wouldn't be here now. I try to remember still throughout all that goes on that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. That includes marrying, moving out, going to seminary, overcoming phobias, and teaching someday.

Thanks to everyone on TWeb. This is an awesome place. I just wanted to say some things publicly.

Thanks, Nick. Godd luck. I'm praying for ya.

[BronzeArcher]

In the ancient area--that's where my major or specialist is going to be in. I'll likely be doing ancient history and philosophy. So expect to have at least one discussion partner.

I also want to make $ and become adept at BJJ. Help pay for education, and be able to fight with high efficiency if I ever need to. Pain folds people, and if not, broken joints will. Consider this--any philosopher is questioned why she studies philosophy. The assumption is that if you "get" education, you must be doing it for a career, or it must be "practical". But no one goes to study in order to be a good human being. No one goes to understand what it means to be human, or what the function of humans are. That is one reason I study philosophy. I want to be a good human being, enriched by history and contemplation.

[SpinyNorman]

Spiny, whenever you post toilet humor is involved.

HEY!! Unfair accusation.

Tuck used the toilet humor, not me!!!